Do you have a faceless face?

I walk straight from my apartment with nothing really to follow. I just follow my instincts, it's sometimes the best option. I end up going somewhere new I didn’t expect to go but I enjoy seeing the new parts of my city. I walk through all the lights, roads, buildings, and I see many faces, some distressed, happy, confused, and defeated. Out of nowhere I get a sensation from my body to go inside the train station and see where the train takes me, I do it because it’s not like I’m ever able to control how my mind thinks so I just follow through with what seems right and in this moment It seems right. I go into the train not knowing which stop I’ll get off, I’ll probably be there for a while going back and forth from stops. I only had one fare. It's enough to take me on a journey on this night until the stars aren’t seen anymore. I have been doing these types of things at night for a while, I think it's a way to cope.night time is the only time I can truly have a conversation with myself about the wrongs I have done, who I have wronged, my calling for the future, and if I’ll ever gain that love I gave to him back. Things have been plain since I lost him, I feel plain, he took a piece of me that now I don’t regret losing. You grow like that into a wiser and better person, I’m growing into the person I was truly meant to be even if I saw myself doing it with him, I have to start letting him go but it feels as if I have to keep him because he gives me this sense of inspiration and validation, which made me come to terms to what I want to do. I want to write at night about my thoughts of everything including him, see different places to shed some light on it, and see the different faces of this city to question how my life is different than theirs or maybe the same. But you might not care, at the end of the day I’m just a teenager that questions everything and everyone around me. I’m a teenager that finds a way to write about different places, items, experiences in my own context. I hope it's okay

ps: I Do Not Own The Pictures Used For My Covers!!!!!